Affirmation

It’s strange how our minds’ work. It has this strange habit of sowing doubts, making us question things we were once confident about. Let me explain . . .

After finally publishing Heart Search, book one: Lost, I was euphoric. My dream of seeing something I’d written on the pages of Amazon had come true and I was riding a wave of triumph; I’d achieved my goal!

I knew early on in the writing of Heart Search: Lost that the story wouldn’t fit into just one book and made the decision to spread it over three. It didn’t faze me in the slightest, at the time, and I looked forward to getting the next section drafted. Once the blog tour was underway, I began making my plans to push forward with it during NaNoWriMo. It would give me the discipline and momentum I needed to get it written quickly, I told myself, and was eager to start.

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November 1st came and I sat down to write, full of ideas and inspiration, confidence running high, and then my mind decided to throw a spanner in the works.

Despite the fact the story was flowing quite well and I’d written over ten thousand words by the end of day three, I began to doubt my abilities. I suffered a crisis of confidence. Just because I’d successfully written one book, did that automatically mean I would be able to complete another one? Did I have another novel in me? Would I find enough of a story to finish it? Was I a good enough author to write a second book?

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All these questions and more spun around in my head like a Tasmanian devil on crack, and it was a horrible feeling. On one level I truly believed I could achieve this second goal, but those niggling doubts had taken root and the tendrils were spreading. I kept my own counsel during this worrying time, dug my heels in and gave myself a strongly-worded lecture. And I carried on writing.

As the word count grew, and one chapter led to another and another, my confidence began to come back a little at a time. The fears didn’t go away, but instead of letting them overpower me, I took back control. I was determined to prove to myself that I wasn’t a ‘one-trick pony’!

I finished the first draft of Heart Search, book two, on 11th January – just eleven days ago – and have now begun the revisions and edits. I can honestly say I experienced the same sense of achievement and joy as when I finished writing book one; I’d overcome my misgivings, my confidence crisis and affirmed that yes, I did have it in me to produce another novel.

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I have no idea where the doubts came from or why my mind decided to throw me a major curve ball. What I do know is, I can fight it and win!

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Humbling Experiences

Hi Everyone,

They say ‘curiosity killed the cat’, but not this feline! In fact it’s quite the opposite. Let me explain.

I decided to go onto Amazon UK earlier and was gobsmacked to see two 5-star reviews posted against my book. http://amzn.to/SRygGD Then I visited Amazon.com and lo and behold I found another two 5-star reviews http://amzn.to/RfqpU8

To find these just two days after Heart Search: Lost was launched was an amazing yet humbling experience. Just the thought that my work had brought sufficient joy to the reader that they would take time out of their busy lives to post reviews, caused a lump in my throat.

Of course I want people to love my book, that goes without saying, but I’m not the egotistical-type who now thinks the sun shines out of my butt, quite the opposite! It’s an experience I will treasure for all time and I sincerely thank those kind readers for their wonderful words.

Reading #BlogFlash2012

Hi, today is Day 6 and the prompt for today is Reading. This is one of two subjects I could talk about for hours (writing being the other, of course), but as we’re limited to 100 words, I’ve tried to do something more creative with it. I hope you like it!

 

 

Reading

 

Damn! Another power cut. I’ve enough battery to continue writing on my laptop for an hour, but I really fancy reading.

 

One of my ideas of heaven!

 

I light some candles; positioned around the room they give it a glow, a warm ambience that electric light can’t compete with. I position a large candle by my chair and grab my book.

 

Vividly the scene comes to life by the beautiful descriptions

 

As I delve back into the exciting scene, my mind pictures the images the words create. The beautifully crafted descriptions allow me to wander, to immerse myself in the world on those precious pages, to relate to the characters and I lose myself for a while.

Immersed in the wonderful world created on the pages